i keep telling myself to write stuff down. i just can't soak it all in fast enough. i feel like the days are flying by and there is so much to photograph and remember. so many sweet, mundane moments that i just can't be in them enough. if i spend my time trying to capture the moment then i'll miss the moment. but then i want to remember it. and sometimes my mind fails me.
so i try and have the camera handy more often than not. not for photographic perfection or even anything remotely close. but to capture the simple moments that fill my heart so full i can barely stand it.
i told matthew this weekend that i truly wish i had a permanent video camera attached to my shoulder. i want to remember it ALL. not just some.
like when tucker holds up his little finger at me and says "jus' wait wight dere mommy. i'll be wight back ooookay?" or will's uncontrollable giggles. or grey and tucker taking hold of each others' hands and running down through the yard unprompted. or even the fighting. i do want to remember that too.
or one gorgeous fall day on the deck with my boys after lunch. like today. i looked out of the window and saw this.
nothing extravagant. at all. but to me i couldn't help but move closer to the door to hear them talking and playing together. and the big guys watching out for will that he didn't eat all the leaves in his circumference.
so i finished up my lunch and headed to the deck to "just be" with them. i watched as grey set up a chair for tucker to watch him play football in the backyard. tuck cheered him on from the sidelines as i commentated the whole thing.
tuck was all out cheering on his brother which made grey run harder and faster. then he tired of playing alone and tried to coax tucker to at least come tackle him. i mean what a dream for the tuck bomb. i think grey gave him too many specific instructions and totally turned tucker off from the whole thing.
so we ended up just sitting and chatting. and laughing at tucker. oh my word, he is the funniest child.
sir william just watched it all, soaked it all in, and decided to pull himself up. most likely he'll be the one to listen to all of grey's instructions and join in his games.
i am truly beginning to understand what being in the moment really means. and living there. but i will bring my camera along every now and again.