it really is okay that i'm just a mom.
wanna know why that's okay? because God said so. seriously. he totally did. and now i'm okay with being just a mom.
really? i'm just a mom? no fancy side business, no professional career, no thing that takes my time other than being just a mom?
it's okay that i spend my days being wrestled to the floor and making animal noises. that i play cars and trucks and trains. that i spend my days correcting and correcting again. oh and correcting again. that my baby won't take a bottle because i am available all day every day to nurse him. that i wipe little booties a whole heck of a lot. that i draw pumpkins for my two year old every single solitary morning. that i spend countless hours answering grey's questions. that i have "helpers" in the grocery store. that i can cuddle and affirm my boys at any point in the day that i desire.
it's okay to devote all of myself to my children to be just a mom.
it's okay because it's God's design for me.
i was apparently struggling with my design to be just a mom and totally didn't realize it. until a few weeks ago.
i was running on the treadmill during naptime. and clear as day God spoke to me. clear as day. in my heart down to my toes. "just be where I have you. don't look around. just be 150% for your boys."
so here i am. just a mom. and i am more than okay with it.
my boys need all of me. not part of me. not the leftovers after i've given myself to some side job, a career. they need me to wipe their booties. they need me to play on the floor. to build snowmen out of playdoh and draw pumpkin trains. they need me to read to them and answer their questions. to clean up their messes and show them who God is when we're talking, walking, or sitting. they need me to be okay with being just a mom.
so as i have a fresh perspective on where i am in this journey, the Lord continues to draw me toward Himself. He is faithfully breaking me down and making me childlike again in my faith. in this overwhelming assignment of being just a mom.
i have three boys who will be men. they will lead their wives and their families. they will be employees, confidants, leaders. now is the time for me to be just a mom to help shape and guide with all that i've got. and nothing less. they will be doing the shaping and the guiding before too long. and from generation to generation i want them to share who God is and what He has done.
it starts with me being just a mom.
and i'm totally okay with that.